I fear that i am original like everyone else

Tue, 07 Dec 2004 15:55:11 GMT

You are not special.
You are not a beautiful or unique snowflake.
You are the same decaying organic matter as everything else.

Suzie, you got your ass beat on prom night. Biiiittchhhh

Tue, 15 Jun 2004 04:11:54 GMT

hello livejournallll.

High school is overrrrrr!!
yessssss. I am so relieved. It really was time for it to end. I always thought i'd be one of the only people to be sad when high school was all over but as it turns out, i don't feel that way at all. Four years with the same people is long enough for me. Towards the end I just became really irritable with everyone I encountered...Its like those small things that bother you become all that you can see. At some point I did like high school...and i will miss it. But now I cant be happier to say goodbye.

I'm sick of trying to mend relationships with "friends"
I stopped trying at this point...and when the other party does not notice/care, i become more and more sure that i made the right decision in giving up.

I quit hungry bearrrrrr!
...well...sorta. I'm working sunday mornings to help my boss out. I will never REALLY get out of hungry bear...I have sold my soul away.

Now I am working at Girl Scout Camp...
Today was the first day of orientation and I must admit that the people I work with are kinda...crazy. We have to refer to all the counselors by their camp names and every counselor picked a girly name like "star" or "prancer" or (my personal favorite) "Mother Nature." I'm just not really cool with being like "hey Sunflower, can you pass me the glue?"...It reminds me of the movie with Tim Allen...where he goes to his son's boy scout meeting and someone names him "running bull" or something (<--I know Im wrong). It's ridiculous in the movie, and it's ridiculous in real life. I am just going to refer to everyone as "hey, hey you" from here on out.

I might be going to Maiinneee!
Patricks parents have a house up there and they invited Tim and I to come up and visit for a week so Im in the process of looking for tickets. Fun in the Sun, here i come.

So...it hasn't even been a week and the-life-of-a-high-school-graduate is kicking the-life-of-a-high-school-student's ass.

weepnotforthememories

Mon, 26 Jan 2004 04:21:09 GMT

...hmm...i was looking at my friends page today for the first time in a long time and i dont talk to alot of ppl on it. i miss some of them and i dont know why we dont talk...i guess my life has changed alot?...but im happy. very.

I bet this update looks out of place on your friends page.
miss me?

Where are you? I need you. You still have my heart.

Sun, 21 Sep 2003 05:28:21 GMT

Started my second college application essay. Wooohooo for that. I havent finished any of my application stuff and im not really dedicating as much time towards it as i should. I should be working on it instead of typing this right now. My life will be so amazing once i get into college.

Last night I wanted to go see Never In Red (<3) but I couldnt because I promised Romy I'd go to her birthday party...which ended up being SO much fun. We had chips n' dip, sandwiches, and sundaes. Someone brought a pinata and we sat around and listened to the chicago soundtrack/Tragic kingdom cd and laughed all night. The entire event was verrrryyyy first-co-ed-6th-grade-party of us. I wish every party was like that.

This evening I slept through the first half of the football game, but I showed up at the end, and we beat Columbus. My cousins on the defensive lineeee and im really proud of him. That sounds kinda gay to say out loud. But I always wanna be like "hey look! thats my cousinnnn!!"

Oh mannn I never wrote about how i got screamed at (in ebonics) by our school security guards over NOTHING, nothing besides my skin color? they are SO RACIST. I hate themmmmm. They act like uneducated, uncivilized, illiterate animals. I honestly believe that you dont need to graduate high school to be a school administrator. Jordanna and I need to get shirts that say "We hate racists back"

best friends means best friends to me

Tue, 16 Sep 2003 04:12:07 GMT

I'm so sick of everyone criticizing me for attempting to have some school pride. Its senior year, and im trying to make the best of it, but everyone has something negative to say. If your too "indie" to bring your non-conformist-ass to a football game, or dance at a pep ralley, or wear green and gold on game days, that's fine. But do it with your mouth shut. So to everyone who makes comments about those of us who choose not to sit in a corner and pout about highschool...did you ever stop to entertain the thought that perhaps your missing out on something?

It must make you sad to know that...nobody cares at all. They never cared.

Wed, 10 Sep 2003 02:09:45 GMT

This weekend was funnn. I hung out with Jordanna, Kelly piper and Jenny Jacobs on friday...we stopped by some stupid party where the girl to guy ratio was like 7 to 1. So we started dancing anddd every so often a guy would come up and try to grope one of us, so we got them off by dancing with one another instead. Who knew you didnt need boys to have fun dancing?

Note to boys: dont grope girls. It's not hot, its gross...Gross like jordanna! get it?! ha..ha....ha?

Even though i should be sick of it, i still like school. Im joining the Model United Nations club tomorrow, I started my essays, andd i feel much better now that ive started working on my applications. I need some scholarship moneyyy though. Who wants free money? I do, I do, I do, I dooo-oOooo

Sara and I saw a fight today! Two girls pulling out each others weaves, Annddddddd we were there before the crowd formed! Awww yea...

Unfortunately, I dont know how to do that cool link thing where i save you spae on your friends page...sorry...
FIRSTS
First best friend: Natalia piedra...My neighbor
First real memory of something: kindergarten?
First date: hmm...i dont really know what qualifys, but the first one i remember actually calling a "date" was probly 10th grade with Sarkis
First Break-up: first break up?...only break up?..and a damn good one at that: Chris Kahn
First screen name: Rocks486 i think
First self purchased album: TLC
First funeral: My uncle
First pets: I had a goldfish named rainbow
First piercing/tattoo: ears? then ears, then ears
First true love: ...i don't fall in love
first play/musical/performance: Violinnn...either at riverside or Arvida.

LASTS
Last cigarette: homie dont play that
Last big car ride: ft lauderdale?
Last kiss: bryan pinchuk
Last library book checked out: who goes to the library?
Last movie seen: Freddy vs. Jason w/Matt R and Alan. Garbage.
Last beverage drank: capri sun
Last food consumed: chocolate ice cream mMMm
Last crush: I dunnnoooo
Last phone call: hailey
Last tv show watched: the rizealll world
Last time showered: -key the sex music- 10 minutes ago. Still sitting in a towel. oww, u kno ur picturing it
Last cd played: Third Eye Blind - Out of the vein
Last item bought: A neclace
Last annoyance: i cant think of it...which i believe is a good thing
Last soda drank: 5th grade?...i duno, i hate soda.
Last ice cream eaten: chocololateee
Last time wanting to die: oOo what a pleasant question...I dont wish my death.
Last time scolded: today forrr putting my recomendation on the counter (where food could get on it)...stupid right?
Last website visited: www.livejournal.com...duhhh

If that's all you will be, you'll be a waste of time

Fri, 05 Sep 2003 02:28:28 GMT

Let me start with a positive...Sara and I had SO much fun at the pep ralley today. Not nessicarily because it was so amazing or anything. We just danced like no one was watching (even though im sure alot of ppl were)...I guess i was just thinking...fuck anyone who thinks we look stupid cause we're trying to have a good time at a school function. I <3 dancing.

Currently, I'm really mad at myself. Our rough draft college essays are due tomm for English, and just like any other assignment, I waited untill the last minute...because im not thinking about how important these essays really are. Or maybe i AM thinking about how important they really are, and i cant decide what i want my potential-future-college to read. I dont really think i should even say things like this out loud because lets be honest, who really gives a shit whether or not I do my homework? whether or not MY essay is good enough? whether or not I get into college? It sucks when you remember that no matter how many friends you think you have, your still in the world by yourself. And it will never change.

One line entries are so much more dramatic...

Mon, 01 Sep 2003 19:15:15 GMT

You just have to be smarter than the ones who are prettier and prettier than the ones who are smarter.

Nothing left to win and nothing else to lose

Sat, 30 Aug 2003 06:30:53 GMT

...i just noticed right now that im wearing a band-aid on my cheek in my livejournal user picture.

I got my hair relaxed and cut today and its really short when its straight, which means its gonna be even shorter when its curly and im scared to see what its gonna look like. (by short i mean shoulder-length)

But anywayyss...I took my senior pictures todayyy. I was debating what type of neclace i should wear w/Daniel and he said i should wear a choker cause he thinks they're hot...and i told him that this picture is verrrryyyy important cause its what your grandkids will look at...and replied with "so wear a choker and give your grandsons boners"...im not sure if he used the word "boners" exactly...but it was something along those lines. Anywayysss i wore my black choker-like thing in majority of my pictures...not just because chokers are "hot" but also cause i think the pearls are kinda cliche (and thats my other favorite neclace).

Today i found out that the guster concert is the night before the SATs. WHY GOD WHY? ...now i dont think i can go...and ive been waiting for them to come down here FoR-EV-eRrRr.

I had fun with Rachel, Alan, and Matt Romano tonight. We took his little sister bowling for her birthday. They all like my hair straight and short. yay! Too bad it only lasts like 2 days...and then i turn back into a pumpkin =(

cause im a mothrfckin PIMP

Fri, 29 Aug 2003 01:32:25 GMT

I wrote the longest entry everrrr last night...but i guess it didnt post. Oh well. Cry me a River.

Anyways...I finally got switched out of my marine class. Horay! Im now in a "class" of aides who all help the science dept. Doin' nothin Annnddd gettin an A for it...thats what i'm alllll about.

I gave my boss my two weeks notice today because i have too much going on in my life to ask for every other day off...But instead of me quitting, he said i can just pick my schedule every week...even if its only one shift. he said "i wouldnt do it for everyone...But ya know i love ya Roxy"...Is it weird that my boss tells me he loves me?...hmm...

I have sooo much to look forward to in the next two months: Dashboard, Killian games, Um games, Gator Growl (which i now have permission to go to), Homecoming, spirit week, & Gusterrrrr. I cant wait for it all.

I have my senior pictures tomorrow after school and i dont know what im wearing. aghh...Getting my hair straightened is gonna cost alot...all this stress for one lousy picture.

I'll convince you soon that I am fine

Wed, 27 Aug 2003 03:15:36 GMT

Today was good. I came to the realization that i cant get myself out of my english class so i tried to make the best of it and it wasnt awful. The teacher is nice and what not...and it seems like its an eay class and all...hes just not Ms.Adams. i<3MsAdams

I got a pretty good seat in Stat today. I sit next to Jacob and he got me in trouble because he took my M&Ms folder off my desk and at that same moment Tori was calling my name for something...and poor little innocent Roxanna, not saying a WORD, gets yelled at forrrrr i dont even know...talking? Jacob thinks being branded "the bad kids" on the second day of school is really funny...I on the other hand, do not. But i think me and jacob will be good friends this year.

The bitch manager at work is trying to get my friend Peggy fired. She tells my boss all these things about the night crew and makes us ALL look bad. She doesnt speak good english so im not sure if she misunderstands us or is just a plain out liar. If peggy gets fired, I think im gonna leave too. My boss doesnt know I have a problem with her, and he likes me alot...sooo maybe that will make a small difference? Many people have already complained and he stands by her anyways.

I NEED A NEW JOB...HELP!

I havent done any of my homeworkkk and its the second dayy...i hate myselff

I feel myself getting sick, when summer ends and school begins...

Tue, 26 Aug 2003 03:08:44 GMT

This weekend was pretty good..i hung out with rachel/alan/matt r/and hailey mostly. I loooveeee rachel and hailey. Somehow, even when we arent doing much, i always end up laughing alot when rachel and hailey are around. I really hope we fufill our plans to hang out more this year.

As everyone knows...today was the first day of school. Surprisingly, I didnt see too many really small freshmen. Annddd alot of people bumped into me (instead of them clearing my path as i thought they would when i pictured the first day in my head). My first period seems like it will be fun...Cause i have ryan ricke, david, alex in my class and kelley is supposed to switch into it. McMandon seems straiight...i didnt want bartlett cause i think shes a bitch. Ok...if i go through each class like this it will take forever. So maybe its just better if i list the people who i was relieved to see in my classes today ("Thank god your in this class with me" people):
Sara (even though shes in like ALL my classes),Jessica Vacarro/Figgy/Grace <3, Jordanna/aliso/eddie , Joana siegal/mikey powell, Evan R/katie

Unfortunatly, i dont have any classes with alot of people (cwissyyy) but i have a reallyyyy good lunch which is really important since they are locking us in this year. I dont like my english class at all...and im switching out of my marine class to be an aide...but besides that i cant really complain. My first day as a senior went well and i can only hope that the rest of the year will go the same (or better).

Im watching nip/tuck...this shows so coooolllll.

Adore miridia & Co. are homeeee =) I talked to tony today and i hope to see him (and maybe oj?) this weekend. We have alot of catching up to do.

Hmmm what else. I am currently looking for a new job. Well not really looking...i just want to work at quiznos with kelly piper cause they get out early/dont do anything/and ill get to see her during the week and what not. Football season is coming up and i know my boss is gonna give me shit if i try asking for the UM games off (football season=sub season). I didnt go to any killian games OR UM games last year and i am not about to do that again.

leaving on a jet plane

Fri, 15 Aug 2003 05:19:20 GMT

(INSERT Roxanna missing mark while he's in japan for a year HERE)

pick me up loveeeee

Thu, 14 Aug 2003 02:39:26 GMT

Just got home and took a shower. And while i was in there i read the back of my body wash and it says "We don't test our products on animals- We'd never be able to sell it to them, they dont have any money."

I got some pimp-ass sneakers from Walmart today. Im pretty sure they're supposed to be puma rip-offs. 10 bucksssss.

i may be fat but u aint ever gonna loose that ugly face u got!

Wed, 13 Aug 2003 14:29:58 GMT

Brought to you by the "out of control teens" on Jenny Jones...

Peggy12486 [10:05 AM]: " i aint no motherfckin' hoe nigga!!!"
RoXbUry925 [10:05 AM]: "aint nobody own us"
Peggy12486 [10:05 AM]: lol
RoXbUry925 [10:05 AM]: hahahahahh
Peggy12486 [10:05 AM]: " we ganna get some dcik tonight"
RoXbUry925 [10:05 AM]: "she tells us what to do, and we dont listen to her!!! we dont give a fucckkk"
RoXbUry925 [10:06 AM]: they didnt say that peggy!
Peggy12486 [10:06 AM]: " haters try to hate"
Peggy12486 [10:06 AM]: no but they were thinking it
RoXbUry925 [10:06 AM]: hahahahhaha

sugar gliders

Sun, 03 Aug 2003 06:46:05 GMT

RoXbUry925 [2:17 AM]: yoo
Dio155 [2:17 AM]: Roxy im miserable =(
RoXbUry925 [2:17 AM]: whats wronggg?
Dio155 [2:17 AM]: I got my new pets today but they are so unhappy... They are just sitting here not playing
Dio155 [2:18 AM]: I know its there first day w/o their parents but they look so sad.
RoXbUry925 [2:18 AM]: haha dio...u had me really worried
Dio155 [2:18 AM]: YOU SHOULD BE WORRIED!

She said its so funny how life runs out so fast. It's just another wasted day.

Tue, 29 Jul 2003 14:37:53 GMT

the lip balm im wearing tastes like the stuff they they put in your mouth to numb it when you go to the dentist.

Soo...right now im in computer lab with my pal Sade. We stopped doing work in comp lab since we found that the work isn't being checked. So now we just sit here and talk online and listen to the kids playing computer games make noises when they get shot.
killyOufOradOllr: college in high school forever.
...i thought ^that^ was funny.
RoXbuRy925: howd u get in?
killyOufOradOllr: being brilliant and shit

Anyhow...This weekend was Warped tour. I wasn't expecting to have a good time but i did. I went with Chrissy, Chase and company and we sweat and got dirty and burned but it was all worth it. Andrew W. K. is the MAN. Afterwards we went to taco bell<3 and on the way home we had a group sing along to dashboard/SavesTheDay. No matter how much i sit here and talk about my day I wouldnt be able to express how much fun i had...so ill just stop here.

Annnddd because i havent updated since...Jordanna's little evil lj scheme went as planned. I got 5 million reply comments mailed to me from an entry i didnt write. Jordanna, Jordanna, Jordanna...what will i do with you? Hmm...even though you called me gay/stupid several times in that entry...I know you had good intentions and uhhh i promise to update more often? scouts honor. Thank you to all those who commented something nice about me and fuck you to all of you who didn't...And that's all i really have to say about that.

Sat, 19 Jul 2003 16:57:07 GMT

i'm gay and never update.

hmm actually this is jordanna. i write in my shit too much and roxanna never writes in hers so yeah. everyone write lots of comments so that she gets them emailed and is like surprised. cuz she never writes so that would be sooo funny if she just got lots of comments emailed. SOOO funny. oh my god. ok i'm starting to be as gay as roxanna now who just went down on me. so bye.

the name on everybodys lipssss is gonna be roxie

Thu, 03 Jul 2003 05:43:48 GMT

Chrissy asked me to write in my journal...so naturally, this is for her <3

My English class isn't so bad anymore. I've made friends with the other students. They're cool and so far no ones making me look stupid.

I went over kelly's house tonight. Man, sometimes i forget how happy i am to have her as my best friend. I don't know what i will do when she gets into a better college than me and we have to separate.

I think I'll start a journal...a real-life, ink-and-paper-filled journal. I can't write anything in this one. I never say who or what is really bothering me...what i think...what i feel. I just talk in this one out of bordem? for entertainment? i duno. So if you read my journal because you would like to be enlightened with Roxanna's feelings on a certian situation or subject matter...save you time...cuz homiiee don't play that. In fact, I think i'll go write in my reaaaalll journal right now. later suckerrrrssss

the whole world is addicted to drama

Sat, 28 Jun 2003 07:28:25 GMT

Yesterday I saw a really really small car (smaller than a mini cooper) on the street and there were 3 or 4 midgits inside it. I know its a you-had-to-be-there type thing, but atleast i'll remember it when i look at this entry in the future...because i for one thought it was hilarious.

Today i unintentionally showed up for work an hour early. Since i was already there, my boss told me to just stay. Damn the man.

Umm what else...This week i started school at FIU. Im takingggg English 1930, Microcomputers anddd Freshman experience. Signing up for english was a mission and a half...they ended up mixing the non-degree-seeking students (me) with the college freshmen. So since english 1930 is a confrence class, and I am the only one in my class who isn't a freshman at FIU, I could very well end up looking like an idiot. On a lighter note...my professor seems real cool.

The fourth of July is coming up...parttaaayyy anyone? Ryan Degrandy don't forget it's the anniversary of the death of our never-seeing-one-another happy ending.

It feels like im starting all over again, the last three years were just pretend

Wed, 25 Jun 2003 05:46:12 GMT

well well...schools over. tonight was my last night with many people who are all heading off to college tomorrow. I dont think it has really set in yet. I try not to let things get to me. But inevitably it will. No more david kramarz or erica boberman. Makes you think about all the time you've wasted while they were here. I don't want to be left behind.

I finally had the chance to see tony this weekend. He has no idea how much i miss him sometimes...hopefully it wont bee too long before i see him again. I've had a very good time the past few days. living it up i suppose?

i never express any of my real feelings on livejournal. this should not be called a "journal."

you suck

Wed, 04 Jun 2003 02:16:21 GMT

MS.CANADA JUST TRIPPED!! AH HAAAA YOUR NOT PERFECTTT!!!

dont hold your breath because you'll only make things worse

Wed, 04 Jun 2003 01:51:40 GMT

I updated my Lj friends...so for all (4) of you who ive been meaning to put on, congradulations youve been bumped up.

Ms. Universe is on. All the contestants are dancing around in an outfit from their country...They look like the Its-a-small-world ride. Anyways...im just jealous.

On another note, My room is probably the worst it has ever been. If i could take a picture of it for you...im not sure i would, cause its honestly terrible. Im lucky that my room is as big as it is...cause if it were smaller, all my clothes would be piled on top of one another (instead of laying across the floor) and it would be much worse. It is far too bad to start cleaning it without having a good couple of hours to spend on it...So ill just wait till school is out (a good week and a half longer).

Tomorrow i have to dress up as john lennon. aghhh i havent done my note cards...whats wrong with me?! Anyways...i dont have the hair to be john lennon...but i will make a poor attempt. Atlest i got a cool person, right?

Oh...what ive been excited for all week. Ryan D's 80's partyyyyy is goin down friday evening. Only ryan would have an 80's party...thank god im friends with him.

Whenever i scan friend's live journal friend's, and i see people sign their names at the bottom of their entries, and i think "hmm...i should sign my name at the bottom of my entries"...its so convinient for others (who dont know who you are by your username)...but then i sadly remember that i never thought of a uniquely (<-word?) clever username.

what the hell...
-Roxanna-

Sun, 01 Jun 2003 06:31:38 GMT

Its 2 in the morning and my neighbors are having a fucking belly dancing party of some sort and i cant sleep because all i hear is people singing clapping and the beating of bongos. Actually...now that ive found something to do with my being awake...the beating of drums have stopped...perhaps its just a song break? oh yes...the drums are back and in full effect. Anyways i just called the cops like 5 minutes ago...i wonder how long it will take for them to get here. im going crazyyyy...it wont stop! Oh...and the singing sounds like the indian guy from that desert rain song with sting. I wish i had the guts to pick myself up and walk over to the fence in my backyard and curse at them till they stop. Its sooo loud...im the farthest from my backyard that i can be, and it feels like they're in the next room. How long will it take the police to get here?...What if this were a real emergency? no...this IS a real emergency, i have work tomorrow morning. I feel like there's a heart beating inside my head aghhh. help me

kisskiss* lets meet for breakfast

Thu, 29 May 2003 03:09:49 GMT

chemicalnirvana7: wow...u writing in ur LJ....its like a miracle

Soo this weekend was pretty long and uneventful. I had sunday off and me sara and chrissy hit up flamingo plaza. In the afternoon i had to go to a family friends graduation party. I dont even think i could describe to you how rich these people were. They live in a million dollar apartment overlooking the beach on brickell. It was gorgeous. Both the kids in the family are good looking and well-mannered. There is absolutly no reason not to like them but im so jealous that i dont like being around them. Being around them make me want to laugh at those who attend killian or palmetto and think they are rich and classy because of the things they own...when in actuality they are nothing in comparison. No matter how many brand name things you own, there will always be someone who has more.

Last week in photography some kid put his fist through the window in the door cause he got in a fight with his stupid girlfriend. I was the only person close enough to get the flying glass on me (feel bad for me here). That same day a fight broke out in my guitar class. The teacher had left the room and it was over before he returned so he didnt even know it took place. Killian...do u know where your kids are?

Today i stayed home from school. All last night and this morning i couldn't sleep. I dont think its insomnia or anything but i dont know why...theres nothing on my mind. I hope it stops. I watched Empire records from begining to end for the first time. I had seen bits and pieces before but never the whole thing. good stuff. oh and i also saw darkness falls this weekend...what a waste of a movie.

i told honour i'd dedicate my next entry to her...so here you go hun.